Off to class tomorrow

Class starts tomorrow. I was telling the guy about my schedule, and lo-and-behold REALLY read my schedule while talking to him, and discovered class starts at 8am this semester, and not 9:30!! Good thing I checked.....I would've felt really intelligent tomorrow showing up late.

We got a really horrendous ice storm this weekend into yesterday. The kids have no school today - their first official snow day. I'm lucky that we didn't lose power. The guy did just as he was headed out the door for work around 10am, so I left shortly after him. He didn't get it back until almost 11pm last night. But many people are still without. Mine flickered a bit, but never went out.

I'm super pissed off at the fucktardexasshole, but I'll save all of that for another time. Just a bunch of crap that he did to me and my credit over the past year that is now biting me in the ass. Fucker.

I think Macey is un-officially not living here anymore. She hasn't been here for her week in well over 2 months now, and the last time she was here at all was over Christmas. We're not fighting; I think she just prefers her big room and no supervision. Her room here IS tiny - closet-like is more descriptive. I know she's "trying" things - she has been honest with me, and I'm honest with her about the stuff. The big question now is whether to go all out and get a room built for her at the guy's house. I told him I DO need and WANT to have a room for her, but I don't think we need to bust ass getting it done. Truly, I'm not that upset, but only because (and many may not understand this) I did the SAME THING. I butted heads with my mom, and eventually moved back to NH with my father. But she is only 5 miles away, not half a country like I was. Time will tell.

I'm sooooooooo not looking forward to getting up tomorrow, but want this semester done and over with!

Less than a week

....and I'm back to class. I hope the semester goes by quickly. I finally got my clinical assignment - apparently they were mailed before Christmas, but I never received it, so I called yesterday. I have the same instructor I had Fundamentals with, at the same hospital. I like her a lot - I hope it's just as good this time around.

Big news - My house is officially for sale! I won't post the listing, but it went up this week.

I'm moving in with the guy. Myself and the kids. Happy, happy, happy!

New email

The guy set me up with a new email account at his website, since my Verizon email is now being inundated with horrendous amounts of spam. I'll be happy to send it to anyone that wants it. I'm holding off on sending a 'change of email' to my address book for a few weeks or so.

Getting better....

The guy and I have talked and emailed quite a bit, and got some stuff worked out. We are back on track with where we are headed (a very good place!). I know I've got stuff to work on, mostly stuff with the kids and the shit they are going through because of fucktard. It's happening.....slowly, but we will get there.

Speaking of fucktard, I've spoken to him THREE times in the past 16 hours. That's a record, even for when we were married. He was pissy about some stuff last night, and again this morning, but I killed him with kindness (barf). Is it too much to ask that he moves out of the country, preferable off the fucking planet?? Well, until that happens, I promise to suck it up and deal. I did for 16 years, what's a few more??

I did get a good bit of news today:

I made the Dean's List for the fall semester!!

Go me! Now that the syllabus has been posted for my last semester, I'll try to get a jump on the reading.

I'll have more news to post this weekend. Hopefully very, very good news!

Happy fucking new year....

I'm so, so sad and upset with where things stand now with the guy. The kids are also. My fault - I'm a fuckup in relationships. I am beginning to think I don't deserve anyone, lest I fuck up someone else, too.

Happyfuckingnewyear, huh?

Two more weeks until I go back to school. I should be excited - my last semester. It's hard to get pumped up for it anymore. I don't even know where my placement is yet, which was something else that was contingent upon my relationship with the guy.

Fuckupfuckupfuckup. I think I'll bury my head under the pillow and come out when it's 2008.......